It's never easy...

Yes, it's not easy, sometime you feel so down, everything sound so not important, so empty...

I keep my diet - every morning oats, lunch :some fruits, salad, dinner: salad, eggs, couscous, pasta. I'm going to the gym almost every day, only the Sunday is my day off. 

I was "bad" for me yesterday and today. Yesterday, because i eat instant soup (lots of salt), and avocado - lol one avocado=260 kcal!!!! I was work very hard on the gym later, and after that i wasn't eat nothing... And today? I eat oats, later went for the gym, but i was fell lazy and don just about 30 min work out ... but girl... and now i have coffee and dried fruits!!! Lots of sugar, but i was so starving from them.. It's about 350 kcal in 100g... I eat a small cup...Bad, bad, bad!!! But OK, i don't want cry because of that. I don that so i have to deal with that... everyone have some kind of days like me...

I check my weight on Tuesday, I went from 132 pounds, to 123... i lost 10 pounds. It's good, i think so. Now gonna be harder, it's always like that. I know. I want lose another 10 pounds...hmmm... I wish be 110... I know i have to be honest with myself, i never gonna be under 100 pounds, I have muscle, and "heavy bones". But I'm gonna try.

...feel so guilty because of that fruits... I think i start be a bit obsessed...

  I'm not gonna Give Up:)